Reason is, I didn't have anything to rant or to share.

I wanted not to blog about it but its frustrating to keep repeating yourself and have people not understand you. I need to blow off some steam. To actually make sense, alil. There are a couple of reasons I want to highlight:

1. The reason why I change.
2. As if you did all those.

1. I know I have changed but I am not sorry. I don't expect my 'friends' to understand what I'm going through (because they have a proper job yet) but I expect them to accept the changes. Like I wanna discuss about the future, share their POVs or advices then again, I feel when I am with them, I feel stuck. Stuck in my SAC days. I'm not saying its a bad thing. I know SAC days were the best years of my life so far. However its refreshing to have a decent conversation than to bitch about and poke fun at others or ourselves.

And sometimes the insults are too harsh that it hurts, especially when it comes from your friends.

2. Sure, I didn't call or text you daily or hang out with you until late because I have work. Hello? 'Least I did call you occasionally and guess what I find out everytime I do.. You guys already planned to hang! So don't tell me I don't do any of that. You don't bother to invite me to any of your meetups. Oh! And while we're at it, I don't hang with you late is because I do have work and I can't be late unlike a certain someone. If I am wrong to be responsible, then I am sorry. Oh oh oh, another one! When people use you and I get piss off, you think I am overreacting. Because you know your limits and you have mood to let people use you. Oh and another, if I didn't have money to go home from work that other day, I shouldn't text you in the morning because its not something any best friend wanna read -if your friend is low in cash and can't take any transport.

So yeh, since you've reason every shit, I've counter it. Reasons you've given me, shitty or not, I actually put myself in your god forsaken shoes and try to understand how it felt like but you apparently don't do the same.

By telling me you don't give a damn about my relationship or my life. And only taking in the negative things that I've confided in you. Yes after these 8 years, you are not being good friends.

I had wasted my time thinking that I've built a strong friendship which can last until we get old.

And ditching the rest of my friends because they didn't think like you guys. Yep.

Thanks guys. I honestly don't need you anymore.

Good luck with your life. I hope you find peace in whatever you do.

If you even cared, after this post. I finally feel at ease. Like a burden lifted off my shoulders.

I am content with just having my family and of course my bf. But its okay, unlike you guys.. the friends that Ive ditched actually came back into my life.